He's changing :')

Assalamualaikum :

 I know , I'am the bad person who change somebody that really kind to be more 

"GARANG "  its break my heart so much when he start to used bad words towards me , his attitude changing alot , the way he treat me . but I never blame him towards all this changing  . today is 10/7/2017 tomorrow is the day that always been counted the Monthsary day :) 

Honestly , I never know he's really this important to me ,it can simply spoil my mood almost every day , crying everywhere anywhere when I start to miss him so much  :') 

the routine has changes :) no phone call, no sweet words , no care to each other , no video call , no sharing daily routine , no boost spirit each other and saling sentiasa ada satu sama lain.

its all my fault actually so never blame him :') but I try to prove that I will no do it again ( the stupid things I do ) BUT I swear I never like or even syg other like me syg him so much :') 

what ever she try to make me SAKIT HATI by using bad words , its okey I balas with my tears .. just to make both of us feel puas hati . akhirnya menyesal :) 

new life

Alhamdulillah I ended up my foundation with flying colors even though aku extend satu sem iaitu 4 bulan :D tpi at least I still layak utk masuk Degree in business . but now idk wht happen I change my course pergi DIPLOMA in shipping management actually aku sendiri pun ndatau apa mau jadi in future minat aku sebenar jadi pilot tpi result SPM hampeh , jadi aku decide ambil foundation in business dgn cara terpaksa , lepas tu skrng aku tukar lagi pergi diploma in shipping management . I hope this is the last things la aku buat keputusan slah terus .

Alhamdulillah since I come to NMIT belajar agak sikit ok , tertekan jugalah sebab ada sebab2 tertentu . tpi now i really nkow the meaning of study , struggle bgitu but insyallah SEM 2 aku ni ada 3 subject aku boleh dpt  4.0 kh

sem 1 ni aku nda minta bnyak 3.0 above aku sdh bsyukur :) sebab aku mana pernah study membanting tulang mcm  apa ni :) dulu fondatiion pun 2.8 ,2.9 hahaha sucks :D but alhamdulillah pengalaman dari foundation i can bring to my new place to study hhee , just tak bestnye , bergaul sama anak kecil aku juga kecil tpi ini lebih seriously makan hati aku ,

Don't be afraid to fail :)

Assalamualaikum


kadang orng takut untuk gagal dan dlm kegagalan mind set pasti akan gagal ataupun disebabkn kehidupan yg penuh dgn cabaran dan dugaan selama bertahun2 juga boleh membuatkn rasa tiada keyakinan dlm diri sendiri

kdg terfikir " aku aku buat ini , pasti ada kegagalan " " kalau aku pilih ini sebgai kejayaan , future aku boleh kh ? aku mampu kh ? " this ayat2 pasti terkeluar atau terfikir oleh insan2 yg penuh dgn disappointed in life .

have doubt to your own self and fear alwys come to your mind , sometimes when we keep thiking about our problem that we need to face it now , seems like useless utk hidup di bumi Allah ini and takut utk face it hari keesokan dan masa akan dtg , orng yg kecewa pasti akan terfikir mcm ni ?

but tanpa di sadari kita mahu jadi mcm orng tu , kita mahu berjaya , kita mahu orng kenal kita , kita buat apa saja asalkn orng boleh bantu kita dan jadi copy cat orang yg berjaya ?  tapi sebenarnya kita perlu invest diri sendiri , kenal diri biarlah berapa jam kemudian . kita kenal diri kita apa yg kita mampu , apa dream we need to face, trima kenyataan dan sentiasa move forward mungkin salah satu strategy yg kita boleh buat untuk achieve a better life , rough time will come , but they not stay , they come to pass :)

love :)

Loving can hurt, loving can hurt sometimes But it's the only thing that I know.When it gets hard, you know it can get hard sometimes . It is the only thing that makes us feel alive
We keep this love in a photograph . We made these memories for ourselves . Where our eyes are never closing . Hearts are never broken And time's forever frozen still .

unforgettable memories

Assalamualaikum 

My first semester and my first time to be in the University life 

My team for orientation night :) " ALICE IN THE GRAVEYARD "

1) sepanjang persiapan utk mlm orientasi , mybe it sound abit nerd kn, pergi orientasi la katakn :D blum berani lgi utk brake the rule :) niat ku ke orientasi ni cuma mau mengelakkn rasa sunyi  maklumla pelajar baru tiada kwn . perantau lagi and in this time la aku kenal erti indepandent . .PROUD . I can do it . biarpun too many obstacle that i need utk brake hhaa .

this group , majority kmi dri sabah ..then thats why senang sikit lgipun kwn2 yg dri KL pun sporting senang crita , semua sebulat suara :)  biarpun ada sedikit pertikaman mulut  Alhamdulillah settle semua that night , aku yg pendiam pun boleh buka mulut kerja diorng :) 

2)  bawah ni gathering last for our preparation utk orientasi , That night , 31MAY its MY BIRTHDAY :) I ngatkn no one know , thanks to my Counselor yg first2 buka mulut and team mate for singing happy birthday to you.. LOUDLY at canteen , until muka I merah padam , punyalah maluu but they cheer me up thanks alot guys :)  and they helping me alot utk hilangkn homesick :) 

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3) THE day has come , our orientation night :) Iam not too nervous because my part only 6 minit in stage , jadi fairy tale  lari sana lari sini then hbis :D  but for the whole drama their using my voice as alice . mcm bdk kecil doh suara satu dewan lagi tu bgema .

zombie makeup :D

that's the end for our orientation night 

if i not mistaken dpt tempat kedua :)) 

  

Duniawi

Assalamualaikum ,



Andai Hati aku terseksa pada masa kini , dugaan dtg tanpa henti buat kami sekeluarga . kadg rasa keadaan boleh mnyiksa manusia di dunia ini smpai sebegini rupa . Ya Allah ,kdg2 susah utk hati ini meredha kn segalanya .

tapi aku tau , kami kuat  desebabkn mu .

adakh aku orng yg rugi ? adakah engkau buat sebegini rupa utk kmi mnjadi lebih tabah dan kuat pada kemudian hari , apa hikmah yg tersirat si sebalik semua ini :') pemikiran , jiwa dan raga cukup tersesak tapi aku tau kau slalu memerhati di setiap gerak geri kmi.

mungkin juga keadaan sebegini adalah utk menyadarkn kmi tentang dosa ,salah dan silap dahulu .
dan mungkin kau ada iktiar lain utk kmi , sesungguhnya jiwa seorang insan yg kecewa  kmi rasai betapa peritnya ,tapi Alhamdulillah kau tetap berikan kami ketabahan yang tidak ternilai kuat bentengnya .

mungkin masa ini pandangan kmi masih tertutp dan masih melihat dan merasa dugaan mu dtg tidak di duga . Insyaallah , suatu hari kmi pasti akn tersnyum dn merasa lega dgn hikmah yg engkau berikan .

let's start

Assalamualaikum :) 

sekian lama blog ni mnyepi dan dulu mungkin  ini adalah salah satu fav place that I can use grammar tungang langgang , bckp bahasa pasar hhe.. then by wrting I can express everything that I feel ,sometimes I dislike to talk  .  then maybe I need to upgrade a bit in this blog and delete mana yg aku rasa aku tulis merepek ja and which that i think need to be secret .